sakibakidaki

i went to genting yesterday. saw ustaz sahli and one pelakon yg tak terkenal at starbucks..yg jadi irfan cerita natasha tuh. i manage to show him the "Loser" sign. hahha.. i hate genting cuz too much ca-ya-nun-alip. fuck racism but that’s me.

i couldn’t sleep last night so i went down to see what’s left with my xbox. no luck there either. so i went up again and do some add math exercise pn. che gayah’s had left for me. then i decided to play the guitar and my mind’s all fucked up so i have to download some stupid tabs from the internet which doesn’t sound so good. not knowing at what time i dozed off, wake up this morning and saw a scratch at my  arms. i looked at the damn guitar. 3rd string dah putus!. hidup mmg menyusahkan aku. baru je 2 hari lepas ganti 2nd string. now i have to go back to the damn place to get  a new string again. sekarang aku nak buat hal taknak mandi pulak. everytime air kene scratch tadi pedih gile. kalau aku bubuh sabun lagi la tambah kepedihannya. leher aku pon sakit sebab tido rata2..

hidup ini mmg gembira. aku la salah seorang penggembira itu. bagus bagus.

that’s all about yesterday

i pray to Allah that today won’t be as fucked up as yesterday.*grin*

hari ini

kurenung ke luar jendela

pandanganku tembus dibalik gunung

kosong…

kosong itu indah

benarkah?

persoalan tiada jawapan

apa yang aku meraban?

dalam riuh rendah

aku sedar sebenarnya aku sendiri

dulu, sekarang dan mungkin akan datang…

aku pelikla sebenarnya…walaupun dah 16 tahun lebih aku hidup dalam dunia Allah ni, aku masih lagi teraba-raba carik diri sendiri. mungkinkah semua orang pun begitu? ketenangan hati ni pun hanya pinjaman sementara sewaktu aku sujud. aku nak ketenangan hati yg immortal… aku tanak jadi salah seorang dari crowd yg worship budaya barat. tapi usaha aku untuk jadi Melayu Islam sangatla sukarnya… aku nak sangat mendalami makrifat Allah tapi tengoklah diri aku mmg tak layak pon…but im not going to do nothing with that.. senjata mukmin aku harap sentiasa ada bekal aku kemana-mana…kalimah syahadah biarlah tertanam dalam jiwa,insyaAllah.

hey heyo..im home again for the chinese new year..cny sucks with a lot of homwerk which is a total burden for me..madam faridah told us to bring back whatever folio we’ve done last year which is neither in school or home because i never do whatever english homwerk..and a ‘YAY’ for me shall we? shall we??

yeah, i’ve been whining alot which is not good mentally. i told myself early this year to "take orders.stop rebelling’ but there’s really one thing i should be pissed off about is pn siti asma..erghhh…haven’t i told u before about pn.rahimah’s voice that seems like lullaby driving me to sleep?? and biology is only interesting when we have to operate the katak malang and dump the body in jon’s pubcup..ahahaha..

the relationship between us (the form 5 student) is getting stroger..we’ve supper together last night…and our guys can’t stop making the ‘wheeee…wheee’ sound which i think is inherited from hosni. we have good foods this year.(alhamdulillah). and i cant stop gaining weight now that my whole family is calling me ‘ainfat’. huhuhu. too bad too bad.

surely there’s tons of homwerk to finish. im going to finish it real soon (maybe in three days of ignoring people and patience). then my life’s going to start again. =)) aten said i should learn to prioritise n that’s what i’ll do..insyaAllah..sudoku drive me insane cuz i just cant stop doing it..one after another until midnite.

i am envying raff’s guitar..when first i saw him handling those masterpiece and the word fender captured my eyes,i was like..’whoaaaaa’. its all about the aura..heheh. that night, during solat hajat, i pray for a fender..trok gile perangai akuh..hohoho

i don’t know what the juniors are thinking about..one of them whose name sounded somthing like ‘kemek’ and his friend fayez told me to sing a song from soad when they saw the damn patches at my bag. "akak zakiah, nyanyi sket lagu aerials…cam tau je ape tuh system of a down" . i said "kau nyanyi lagu ibanla, muke kau cam iban"..hahaha…kids! reminder for the remainder…diorang tu baru dengar soad dari abang2 form5 jer dah nak worship sgt artis barat..

well, for the time being, i’ve retired from the skodeng club since mae caught me red handed..ahahha..later

THE KEYS TO YOUR HEART

well, another quiz i guess..i dont know what the hell it got to do with animals cuz the question is all about animal and this is what they came out as a result..

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you’re told that you’re loved.

You’d like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t fall for it easily.

i’m down with the foo fighters this week. when they first formed, i was pretty unwilling to believe that grohl could top what he did with nirvana. it just seemed insulting. and to be honest, the first few albums were nothing that struck me as something i’d go out and buy. but right now i’m digging one of their current singles and it occurs to me that they haven’t just successfully outdone nirvana, but i would happily admit they’ve written most of the best rock music of the last 5 years. the car grief seems to keep getting worse. i am filled with screams. and i’ve opened my email just now. there’s already three upcoming event and i’m really sorry i won’t bother to think of anything right now either than my slipping grades.hahaha..now that i should hate myself for making myself sound like a freaky nerd..hope u guys have fun without me, fuck urself when u get boring or go get some oyster sauce to top your salad.

hey, i did this damn quiz sumone sent it to me. but its too bad that friendster blog doesn’t support html script. if it does i still haven’t figure out how. and i’ve lost a long review of rock the world 6(takes me 20minutes to write that and it just vanished like that, it’s quite dissapointing!) but i wrote another one anyway to put it in my english homwerk(which i havent passed up yet)..and yeah about the quiz, why dont u guys check it out at http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=987 i scored 88% for rebel and lonely. guess i am a loner. get used to it anyway.

last week was a tough one. school has started again and its my final year and i’ll be sitting for SPM in november. my dormmate was a little shock with my new haircut. and so do fatin..n mae too..i am grateful with my short hair. easy to take care. no more rigid routine like applying extra moisturisers at the end of my hair to prevent the strand breaking. i don’t miss my dinner anymore.*Happy!!* i wash my hair daily nowadays. smells geeewwwdddd..owh, there’s lots of people asking why i cut those damn hair. i still remember the day when i get it cut, i called my mom thrice only in one hour. she never allow me to have short hair since i was 4 because i get really naughty and hyper with short hair. since then she decided to not cut my hair shorter than my shoulder level. and because i always get it trimmed at least once a fortnight, it grew really fast that it can cover my whole back. but now the long hair is gone. i have to admit i was pretty sad at first but yeah i dont have too much time to do this and that. what’s good is i can wear half-scarf without worrying the hair dangling around..ahaha..lots of air for the hair.*yay!*

the sports day is coming and surely we’ll have lots of things to do. gonna be real bz again but i think the nilam girls relationship is getting better from day to day. we had our meeting held last night which last until about 1. it ended when fatin told that she had a full bladder and can’t stand a second more. bengong. school’s lots of fun i think. keon’s our batch leader.*applause*. and i am more comfortable with hosni than before.*alhamdulillah* we had our blazer.finally. and i hate the skirt because its too big that it doesn’t stay in my waist but my ass instead. and the top had a baggy lengan which i think double my size. but who care im going to wear it anyway. but not with baju kurung for sure even if aidil tell us to do so. and i get rid of the f words already.